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BDD had taken over once again and reared its ugly head at the worse possible times. I was getting dressed for an evening out with my gf and suddenly became obsessed. It almost destroyed my lover's birthday and quite possibly did. Please take a good look at what having breasts and hips can do to someone with this disorder. Knowing that it is humanly impossible intellectually and physically not to have a shape like a line, and that I am in deed a woman, I still attempt to distort the truth. My cognitive distortions will NOT RUIN ME. I am fighting this fucking obsession but it is so hard not only on the me but on the people who love and surround me due to its grave absurdity. As some know, this is an unusual disorder and very rare. It can become quite debilitating if left unchecked and can lead to such maladies as agoraphobia and suicide. God knows I have tried all types of gender/OCD/BDD and anxiety therapies. With the help of meditation and spirituality there has been some relief to be found and major growth. Yet someone who suffers from an anxiety disorder knows that it can creep up at any time and usually at the worse possible times due to stress. WISH ME LUCK! p.s. DON'T JUDGE THE BOOK BY IT'S COVER.